Last weekend at my regular Al-Anon meeting I talked about how alcoholism, the disease and its effects, has brought me to my knees.
It has broken me in two.
I am starting to mend, but it is taking some time.
As usual, my face heated up and I stared at the floor and I kicked myself for sharing too much, even though that’s the point. I don’t know why anyone would care.
Afterward a regular attendee, Cee Cee, came up and thanked me for speaking up.
Her daughter’s heroin addiction has brought her to her knees, as well, and she liked the way I described that.
We talked for a few minutes. I felt connected, less raw, more energized.
That’s partly why I keep this blog.
Friends, sometimes I check my stats, as I did just now. I can see who visits the blog and from where.
I can tell you with absolute certainty: the disease of alcoholism and addiction is causing heartbreak all over the world.
Every day, since I published it, I get at least ten new visitors who find me via Google. Google leads them to this post, my most popular, because heartbroken people Google questions such as:
- can i divorce an alcoholic
- addict custody in _________ county
- divorcing an alcoholic
And so on. And that’s just today.
If you saw the long list of search terms, your heart would break a little too.
But there’s another story here. It reminds us how pervasive this disease is.
Today I’m feeling a little less alone, a bit less ashamed. And I hope you are too.
We are not in this alone, and we cannot fight this alone.
I hope these words bring you some comfort today.