About Me

I enjoy: playing with my children, reading, writing, movies, time with friends, walks, and playing cards.

I divorced an alcoholic and addict and started this blog to help heal the pain. It was not an easy thing to do.

I have two small children, a house, and a furry pet. I drive a Japanese family vehicle.

I have a job that I like on most days.

I live in the midwest in a swing state.

I volunteer, go for walks, and love coffee.

I have residential and legal custody of the children. He has generous visitation rights.

I’m the one who makes sure the doors are locked at night. I go on dates sometimes and worry about my stretch marks.

I was searching for other chronicles of marriage gone wrong and didn’t find a whole lot, so this is also kind of a community service project.


18 thoughts on “About Me

  1. keep writing and let it all out. That’s precisely what I do with mine. I call it my ‘catheter’. Cos that’s just what it does for me. Stay strong and keep the faith. hugs

  2. Hi, thanks for sharing your story. Blogging really does seem to help. I looked for sisters of addicts and didn’t find many similar blogs too! I look forward to following your story.

  3. Iā€™d like to recognize you with the beautiful blogger award.

    Beautiful Blogger Award Rules:

    The idea behind the Beautiful Blogger Award is to recognize some of the bloggers we follow for their hard work and inspiration.

    1. Copy the Beautiful Blogger Award logo and place it in your post.
    2. Thank the person who nominated you and link back to their blog.
    3. Tell 7 things about yourself.
    4. Nominate 7 other bloggers for their own Beautiful Blogger Award, and comment on their blogs to let them know.

  4. I left my husband of 22 years in August of this year because of his addiction. I started my blog because I was trying to find something to obsess about other than him, and it turned into a play-by-play of losing my best friend to drugs, infidelity, a much younger girlfriend, and how pissed I tend to be that this all happened to him and to me. I’m sorry you have little kids. I was spared that…our kids are all in their early twenties. They are appalled, but dealing with it. Thanks for sharing your story. You are in a big group…there are a lot of people going through this kind of pain right now. 2012 just sucked.


  5. Good luck…it’s a lot to cope with, but alcoholism is toxic as hell to relationships. My mother is alcoholic and it ruined decades of my life, even when I lived (as I chose to) thousands of miles away from her.

  6. I too lived in a Midwestern State and sadly I have a nightmare story about my first husband who was a mean alcoholic (I say this because he was always the life of the party otherwise) but when he mixed alcohol with drugs, he was not only irresponsible but abusive and scary. My girls were 2 and 5 when I left him. We left with their two beds and our clothes and not much else, we struggled to make it but we did and our lives were so much better for it. I don’t know your entire story, but I will say a prayer for you that everything works out in the the best way for all parties involved. Keep posting and stay strong. My blog provides me with a therapy of sorts and its amazing the kind (and wise words) you will find. At some point soon I’ll be posting the story about my 1st husband that I married when I was barely 19. But I have been blessed with a GREAT, and beautiful, kind, loving, gentle, smart and caring husband now – so I an grateful. Thank-you for sharing your story.

    • And thank you for sharing yours. Good for you for moving on. You give me hope that there could be something else–something better–in store for my life. Happy New Year!

  7. I love your blog: the honesty and genuine sharing. My husband is an addict and I started 2013 with him in rehab and a need to understand, because I DON’T. I just spent an hour running through your archives. We have 5 children between us, 4 of them under 8, so I empathize with you. I am not sure where he and I are headed in our marriage, but I certainly committed to following you. Best wishes.

  8. I was married to the love of my life for ten years. We survived his addiction and alcoholism or so I thought. Our daughter was born during his sober period. He lost his job two years ago. I found myself taking my daughter every where because I couldn’t trust to leave her with him. Realized he was secretly drinking when I couldn’t leave her to be with my dad at the hospital, cancer. Forced aa, took over everything, believed my love and now know my codependency could fix it. A year later the secret drinking was evident in totaled cars, missing money, credit cards, i left. I have been living with my parents for one year, divorced six months with supervised visits. I supervise. My heart hurts wanting to believe this and that and so scared of the unknown future the loneliness. So mad at the not understanding why. Why. I left my house I left my dreams, I’m now a single mother declaring bankruptcy to be able to move on. Giving him his time with her when he choses and is ‘sober’, hard to tell. I have survived I will do all I can to be the best that I can for her, but damn its hard. I have googled, alanon, therapypy, read, friends/family and still working on me each day. Why after so much do I fall for wanting to believe in him. I can’t do this year again and from all I read it feels as though there is little hope for him. God there it is, I just need to see the hope for me!

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